However, due to "sins of the father", it has been a family burden that alcoholism runs in our family (both sides, yo!). Every time I drank, I always thought about it. There were quite a few times where I thought I was slowly becoming an alcoholic, such as when I would feel a physical yearning for a drink when I wouldn't be able to have some.
As time has progressed, I've begun drinking a lot more by myself. And while I may only have a few beers or a lot of wine, my alone-drinking was becoming more & more frequent. This past Thursday I drank an entire bottle of wine in less than an hour before noon, threw up, then slept on my bathroom floor until about 4:30. The worst part? I then ordered $20 worth of Chinese delivery! WTF?!
So yeah, this shit needs to stop. I don't want to end up like so many people in my family (which will be a topic later on). I'm still going to drink around people since I can moderate more easily. But for now, this needs to happen.
So there.
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Alcoholism runs in my family too, I have these feelings too sometimes but I also don't drink all that much, but when I do I sometimes get the thought in the back of my head that I don't want to end up like them one day. You can do it!
Thanks! I know I'm gonna kick its ass but it still sucks. I just don't want it to progressively get so bad that it affects my life. I don't want to be like Uncle Jay who reeked of beer at my grandfather's funeral. Or when he made the kitchen smell like beer at Easter.
Also of note? I have a LOT of Native American in me. That doesn't help.
you can do it! i have faith in ya. just remember the bathroom floor part. having things in common with lindsay lohan ain't cool.
omg now i want chinese food and i don't even LIKE chinese food.
oh and i have an uncle jay who's a raging alcoholic. we are meant to beeeee.
His real name isn't Jay. Same first letter though.
Also? It was a very nice sleep. But puking sucks. This was the first time I've thrown up in over a year & a half (since I puked on the cab driver in Florida).
Yes, that's a post on here back in October 2009 if you want to read about it.
hmm....my first thought is WHY drink at all? Possible that you just don't have an 'off' button and it is genetic. why risk it? Also...LIVER DAMAGE....progressive, sneaks up on you and then WHAM! I have lots of alcoholics in Aunts, Uncles etc. My brother died an alcoholic 4 yrs ago. Also had esophageal cancer (from alcohol) and liver damage. Not pretty. Stand strong and live long (I'll make you a wristband) :)
Everything sounded fine until the barfing and lying on the floor. You're a smart guy, so you'll figure out what needs to be done. : )
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