Friday, January 27, 2012

Night Me

On the nights that I get to stay up late, I notice that I become rather introspective. I don't know if it's because I run out of stuff to read on my regular sites & stumble upon works with substance, or if maybe I get to thinking about deeper things due to no one else being up & it's truly a feeling of being alone. I like it, though.

When this happens, I plan. I make big plans. I'm going to start working out again. Or better yet, I'll start writing something more than some crappy blogs every so often. Or maybe, just maybe, I'll start reading books that are stimulating. OR! I might start playing the piano after my almost 6 year hiatus. Hey, if I do that, I could possibly start doing art again. I was a pretty good at pottery & incorporating mixed media into sculptures back in the day.

It's also this time of night when I hope to start eating healthier, & cooking for myself instead of eating out almost every meal. I might even become a better cook...

It's this time of night when I truly come alive. I feel like I'm a different person. I'm closer to the person I want to be, as well as the person I believe I actually am. 

But then I have to go to sleep & begin the whole ordeal over again. Bitchy customers, work, family drama, & depression take hold of me once again. 

On another note, I'm an awesome model. Admire my hanging arm shelf.

Sunday, January 15, 2012

She's Baaaaaack

Remember Christy? The girl with Down's Syndrome who wouldn't leave me alone?

Well, after I blocked her number a few months ago, everything seemed ok, more or less. I'd get the occasional Facebook message from someone in my old church telling me that Christy had been talking about her "best friend Andrew". She even dedicated a song to me that she sang in front of the entire church. Oh, how joyful I was when I found out. I was even more thrilled when I found out that the song was "Jesus Take The Wheel." Sigh.

Anyway, the temporary block on her number has stopped & the texting & calling has begun again. Literally, as soon as the messages started coming to me, they did. Which means she had been texting & calling me non-stop for months. Let me remind you that I have not spoken to this girl since September. I know she has special needs but this is ridiculous.

So now I just did another block on her number, as well as for her mother; both of these will expire in April. So we'll see what happens then.

Over it.

Thursday, January 12, 2012


Remember back when I used to post on this piece of shit pretty regularly?

Yeah, me neither.

Anyway, I assure you all that I am indeed alive & somewhat well. In the next few days I shall regale you with some crappy story that either just happened or happened a long time ago. I haven't decided yet.

Don't forget about me!