Monday, February 22, 2010

Adventure

I remember it was around this time last year I watched the movie "Into The Wild" for the first time. I thought it was incredibly pretentious & couldn't sleep later on in the night because of the creepy-ass picture they show of the real guy who died. But one thing I got from the movie was that I needed adventure.

My life has been relatively uneventful. College was always in my plan since I can remember. My parents always wanted the best for me, so they always pushed me to be better than everyone in everything I did. For the most part, I was. But my life was so boring (unless I did something stupid, like locking myself in a basement with a bisexual Wiccan or almost getting my ass abducted by a truck driver). I didn't have friends I hung out with while I was a teenager. One time I went about 2 months without leaving the house except to go to my grandma's (I was home schooled at the time). So no adventure then.

When I went to college, I was overwhelmed to say the least. I might have been in a small town, but I had choices! People may or may not have wanted to have me around. And I wanted to be around (almost) everybody. I had adventure (it's always an adventure when alcohol is concerned & when you realize you're kind of a slut that doesn't put out), but I was still stuck in a routine.

Then I saw this movie. Mainly because I love Kristen Stewart & her inconsistent acting. I was stressing out because I was graduating in a few months & had no idea what came next. I knew graduate school was eventually going to occur, but what else? I came up with the idea to road trip. I made a mental list of everywhere I wanted to go (New Orleans, L.A., NYC, the plains of the mid-west). Too bad I couldn't find anyone to go with me & I got into a graduate school.

But here I am. I'll be 24 in exactly 6 months today. I just watched part of the movie again. The drive to do something has returned. Where is my adventure? Should I road trip? I looked at my bank account tonight & after the urge to cry had left, I began to chew on my options. Now would be a good time to just pack up & go somewhere. Obviously I would handle it different than Chris did in the movie (I'd let my parents know where I'd be, I'd be more hygienic, & I wouldn't die. At least not because I ate some damn poisonous berry). But is that the adventure I've been lacking?

Damn. It's too late for me to be thinking about this mess. I just don't want to be older & realize I'd wasted my youth, because I already feel like I've wasted it enough as it is.


11 comments:

Renee Marie said...

Don't freat my friend. Life has it's moments. I was in your shoes a few years ago. Life holds many unexpected twists and turns. It's a journey. Strap on your seat belt and enjoy the ride. If you feel the need to take a trip, do it. I took a 2 week road trip from Savannah to RI, then to Brooklyn. Sometimes getting away from it all will open a new door.

Andrew said...

That sounds amazing. I don't enjoy myself enough.

Renee Marie said...

You need to! Also, I just realized that I was born in your current city! Hows that for a small world!

Andrew said...

Very small. When did you move from here?

Renee Marie said...

1996, we moved about 2 hours north. I go back every other month or so to visit family though.

Andrew said...

Awesome. It's very different than anywhere else I've lived. Definitely a transition. I live right over by City Place, so that's nice (though I never go there anymore).

Renee Marie said...

City Place is fun, haven't been there in a few years though. I grew up near the airport. Near Congress Ave.

Andrew said...

Oh ok! I live near there kinda. I'm close to Belvedere. I live in some crappy campus apartments on the Palm Beach Atlantic University campus right next to First Baptist.

Renee Marie said...

Humm, not sure where that is. I grew up near the Forest Hill, Florida Mango intersection. Way back when I used to ride my bike to the Dreher Park zoo on Summit blvd. lol! You're making me miss WPB!

Andrew said...

Ooh! I know that intersection (kind of). I used to work at the Applebee's on Forest Hill in Wellington in front of the mall. Though I think all of that might have been built after you left.

Renee Marie said...

I know the place.