Thursday, April 29, 2010

A few observations

It's weird being back in Toccoa & having school be in session. The last 2 times I was here were holidays, so most of the students were gone. That, however, is not the case this time. I went on campus yesterday to see some of my professors & I ran into some former classmates/friends. I've realized over the past few years (such as the last year I was attending college there & the past year since graduating) that most of my friendships were more out of convenience & weren't actually genuine friendships.

This really bothers me because my whole life I've put so much effort in trying to make real friendships & for a while I thought I had finally achieved this. But my senior year some of my friends just kind of...cut ties with me & formed new friend groups. With the same friends that we had before. Minus me. To this day I still have absolutely no idea why this happened or if I had done something to cause it, because when I would talk to these people everything seemed fine & they didn't even seem to notice it had happened.

Ugh. I'll talk about this later.

Anyway, what I wanted to say was that I'm finally coming to terms with the fact that I more than likely will never see these people again. And it doesn't really bother me at all (but it kind of does). I made some very good friends in my 3 years at Toccoa Falls College, & the small handful of people who I still consistently communicate with are pretty kick-ass.


Renee Marie said...

Dude, I feel ya. I spent 5 years in the town I went to college in. (Out of state) And now, almost 7 years after I graduated, I only really talk to about 2 of them. But, and I hope this cheers ya up. They say that at the end of your time, when you're old and gray you can count your true friends on one hand. That may seem sad, but I'd rather have 5 really amazing friends then a dozen who aren't!

Andrew said...

I too would rather have better quality than quantity. It was just a jarring feeling to have my social life ripped out from underneath me. Today was a great day though. I got to hang out almost all day with one of the best ones I had.