Monday, June 27, 2011

Going Downhill

It has recently come to my attention that I'm getting older.

I know this may come as a shock to some of you, but it's true. I am almost halfway to 50.

Now, I know this may bring me the ire of my readers that are much, much older than I am (Dr. Ken, I'm looking at you). However, I'm having difficulty accepting this harsh fact.

It's tough waking up in the morning after a long night of drinking by myself & actually having to deal with a hangover. In the past, I would be able to drink until I laid down & went to sleep (I refuse to black-out. Whenever I feel one coming on, I decide to "go to sleep"). The next morning, I would wake up feeling as bright & sunny as I possibly could considering I'm borderline homicidal when I wake up. But now? Now I have the headache. And my eyes don't focus as well. And I move quite sluggishly. Mookie.

And to be prematurely losing my hair. Granted, this has been going on since I took Depakote when I was 18 as a mood stabilizer & it was one of the side-effects. But since then, I feel like I've been fighting a losing battle. It is honestly the one thing in my life I'm the most self-conscious of. It's not that I weigh 140lbs or that my voice sounds like I'm always stopped-up, bored, & taking estrogen injections or even my inability to do anything with coordination or grace. It's the fact that my hair is thinning. Luckily, I've found some products that seem to be working to slow down the process & possibly reverse it, so we'll see.

And you know what? I can tell my metabolism is slowing down. Even though my arms & legs are still uber skinny, my tummy is getting some pooch to it. And baby doesn't like that.

AND I can't seem to function on 2 hours of sleep anymore. When I was in college, I would be on the internet or reading until the birds started chirping or later. Then, I'd wake up about 2 hours later & while still tired, I wasn't essentially a functional zombie. Nowadays, if I get much less than 5 hours (such as the way tonight is going to turn out, I see) I really struggle throughout the day.

If this is how the rest of my Twilight Years are going to be, I'm really not looking forward to it.


12 comments:

Dr. Kenneth Noisewater said...

You'll be happier in your 30's. Just wait and see . . .

: )

Andrew said...

That's so inspirational.

Nicole said...

You'll be okay, its just a part of life. :)

Penny Lane said...

Welcome to adulthood old man

( although being that I am only 20, I don't think I am qualified to welcome you)

Andrew said...

I know I will, Nicole...it just...takes time.

And Penny? You can take that greeting & shove it up your pooty hole!

That means butt, by the way.

novelaborate said...

i used to be hangover-proof too.

damn it.

we're both getting old, it seems...

novelaborate said...

(p.s. it's bennett)

That 20 Something Virgin. said...

coordination and grace are overrated. just sayin.

Aubree said...

i was gonna say you could drink less to avoid the hangover...it's a thought!

George said...

Getting older is a bitch. I'm a couple years ahead of you, but I don't worry about it. It's a number. I have no hopes for my hairline and I'm not going to do anything about it. Good luck.

Andrew said...

George, I just can't leave it be!

Aubree, not an option.

Hey Bennett :)

Charcoal Renderings said...

Why did I have exactly these same thoughts the other day? Geez.