Friday, July 29, 2011

Doctor Time

I think I'm going to make an appointment to see the doctor while I still have insurance (my mom can retire in February, plus I'm getting old). I'm not necessarily sick, but something just feels off. Well, more off than usual.

Aside from my usual anxiety & depression crap, I'm just exhausted all the time. At this point I'm struggling to get my homework done because just thinking about starting it wears me out & I then I find myself taking a 5 hour nap. I'm getting it done, but I'm stressed out the whole time because I dicked around all week because I was napping or watching TV because I was stressed out.

My room is a mess right now because I start thinking about how I need to clean it & then I start to worry about where I'm going to put it. Then I get tired & just give up. There are two piles of books on either side of my bed. They've been there for weeks & I have no idea what to do with them.

Riveting stuff.

Kill me.

I have no energy to read much for pleasure. It takes too much effort. Even watching TV or getting on the internet takes too much energy.

I had been worried I was overwhelmingly lazy, but my counselor doesn't think it's that. He suggested that I might as well get it figured out while I still have insurance, in case it's something more serious than we think.

And just so everyone knows, if I start thinking about exercising that almost does me in. I've had a yoga mat for almost a month that I haven't even unrolled. I don't think it's my diet either, because I eat quite a bit of fruits, veggies, & grains.

I'm not really concerned. Just pissed off more than anything.


George said...

You do need to see the doctor if you are thinking about exercise.

Andrew said...

That's obviously where I'm going wrong.

That 20 Something Virgin. said...

i agree with george. just the thought of putting on running shoes sends me heading to the couch for a nap.

Rebecca J-G said...

It could be anemia, Andrew. That's what happened to me. I thought I was having a heart attack...pounding in my chest, exhausted, no motivation. Finally went to urgent care when I thought I was having a panic attack. Ended up in the hospital getting 4 pints of blood...transfusion. It's taken me almost 3 yrs now to get back to 'normal'...still have to get iron IV infusions once a month. DEFINITELY get it checked out. You're too young to be draggin' <3

Andrew said...

Rebecca...that sounds icky. Hopefully it's not that. But that is one of the things I've considered.

Rebecca J-G said...

Well, get your blood panel CBC done, and if it is anemia, you can probably take care of it with iron supplements or changing up your diet. Do you have weird cravings? I craved spinach and...wait for licorice! It's a strange condition--really creeps up on you and then BAM! wipes you out! Let me know how it all turns out!